a porcelain spirit

someone who has touched God and hasn’t finished trembling yet.

a conversation with God overheard.

today my spirit feels… tender. like fragile porcelain, but in a holy way. ( does tender correlate to porcelain? - maybe not but today it does )

it’s so strange and uncomfortably intense, this tenderness. sometimes - actually all the time - i feel almost too much. i’m too aware.

every significant moment or tone or pause in language - i feel it all with an aggressive weight before my brain even knows what’s happening.

and You’re near… closer than close - there is no distance with Us. ( that’s song lyrics lolz )

i can feel You in the quiet and in the noise.

but lately it’s so overwhelming i can’t hold back the tears.

i just weep in reverence.

but not from sadness or despair.

from being undone - in unexplainable awe of You.

my body cries out what my words can’t say - because it’s far too much to fathom to find descriptive words.

my spirit bows before my mind catches up. love, awe, gratitude, reverence - all intensely wrapped in one overwhelmingly covering moment.

whew.. deep i know.

it’s uncomfortable.

i’m literally walking in new skin that’s too aware.

don’t get me wrong - it’s exhilarating too.

because i’ve never felt this alive.

i’ve never known You like this.

this depth of mine has become devotion.

my vulnerability is now worship.

i’ve never been able to feel so seen, so held, and so vulnerable all at once by You.. and now myself.

**sometimes i wish everyone could understand. but i know this kind of sensitivity isn’t for everyone to understand. some people will read this and scroll. some will think it’s mere poetry.

but a few of you -

will feel it - not just read it. **

You’re making a sanctuary out of my sensitivity - a meeting place between Us. and while it may be ridiculously uncomfortable - i feel safe and certain like never before. so thank You.

i love You <3 .

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